Tuesday, February 25, 2014

Matthew 3

       I am trying to be in the present, but I am thinking all of what I have to do today. I feel like I want to just sleep in my bed. I need to go to the doctors, then marriage counseling, volunteer at my daughter's school, and help at the church. My day is full. I am blessed. I get to be a stay at home mom, I have two kids, a husband, a home. I feel my joy is stolen. Stollen, that I am unable to enjoy my blessing because of the fogginess of depression and anxiety. I have purpose today, I am going to choose and be thankful. I pray that my thankfulness will last.

Sunday, February 23, 2014

Matthew 2

      Amazing, God had led the 3 wise men to Jesus. The wise men heard from God. Then Joseph was led by God to leave Egypt. Joseph heard from God and acted on it. How do I know I hear from God? Alot of times when I think God is leading me and I am hearing from Him. I question it. That is a mind of a worrier. Fear takes over and I do not act. God did not give me a mind of fear. Isaiah 41:10 NIV "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." There are many times I felt I am being lead by God, but I do not act on it. If I am acting out not of faith, but of fear, how can I truly know if what I am being lead to is God. How can I be strengthen if I do not act? I fall short. I am thankful I can renew myself daily through Jesus. I do not have to have the past affect me, those are washed away. I can start and choose now to walk in faith. If I am being lead by God and struggling to act on it because of fear, I can recognize that fear is creeping up in my mind. I will walk in faith and act.  

Dream House

I want to sort out my thoughts on my dream house. Kyle and I are getting really close to looking into buying a house. Well we have been sinc...